Written on ...[26/02/2005 23:37:29]

ALCHEMIST.....................................
a book which is on t he bestsellers list for a long time....i got this book just by chance of luck... It truly leaves u to think for a while as u read each line.... and in the end it tells U to LISTEN to ur Heart..... follow ur dream .....realise ur purpose...before its too late..

We travel with sandiago....an ordinary shepherd boy with a difference....!!!!! Dreams come and go...sometimes it affects us and sometimes no....Dreams are to be followed...easily said than done nah??? but Paulo Coelho...the author has a different fact to tell us...Sandiago and his trail teaches us that Evrything under heaven has a purpose...and our aim in life should be to realise it...Since God cant keep conferences and explain it to us with PowerPoint presentations...we get to see something more natural and within Gods range......dreams.....
Seems a bit philosophical huh???"the boy" takes us to the distant deserts and then in search of the Alchemist--who is a person who has discovered the Elixir of Life and the trick to turn every other metal into gold..
Alchemist helps the boy discover the tru meaning of life .....of achieving ur dreams....and he helps us climb into the cloud....it has given me the answers of many of my questions..a.nd hope it would do the same to you...enjoy reading

Written on ... [05/11/2004 03:13:22]

dear.....whoever
i dont know why i may be feeling like this...She is again slipping into tht same old trance.... I sometimes feel very childish of not accepting things as they are.. Many a time when i see her chumma loitering here and there without doing her work....i feel that sudden thud in my heart which rises all upto my throat and urges me to tell her to go do her work...but then i stop myself ' what right do i have to tell her that? she is a big girl and she knows whats good for her... there's absolutely no need for me to remind her'
but still i am that old character itself...she has been more than a friend for me...i have always felt possesive about her and so she was kind of over protected by me....and the consequences of that...i better not go into that again!!!!!!!! So i stop myself and when accidentally those concerned words escape my mouth my heart pounds again waiting for her reaction...
will it be a 'I knew u will say that' kind of look.......or will it be a look of confusion???.. or will it be her favourite weapon?....Silence???
...her silence...it hurts me more than any other thing in this world...... that expression on her face which completely ignores me...as if i dont even exist!!!!!!............it just pricks deep into my soul and drains me of all happinesss........

Writen on ... [08/07/2004 03:15:57]

Friendship..takes u higher everyday....!!!!...sometimes it takes us so higher that we find ourselves all alone in tht height!!!!......Crazy idea huh??
more than four years of friendship...and it has been absolutely wonderful.....but now i and my friend is in a position where we have nothing more to talk about.......it feels like everything is said......
at this point i am forced to think ...maybe it is like this itself in all long term relationships.....is it????...is it gonna be same in marriage also???...if so do we have the right to blame someone for getting out of their marriage?????....what do u say?

Written on ... [25/07/2004 03:28:04]

i believe in destiny....something like those "someone somewhere for u"" ...someone called ur soulmate ,ur soulmate maybe completely contrast character to u..but together u become perfect..well thts why we have 'Better halves"...right!!!
there are three categories of people in our world.....wanna know what...one section are those lucky ones who have the privilege to find their soulmates and proceed to make them their life partner....their life will be complete with love and care and understanding....
Another section are those who meet up someone and feel tht they are their soulmate....(may or maynot be true)...their life becomes a heaven or hell according to their own reasons...only thing we can do is to wish them luck....
Now there is yet another section......(perhaps the most tragic of all).....they are lucky enough to find their soulmate...the one who completes them...the one who is the answer to all their problems.....life becomes beautiful when they are together.....but the tragic part is when they realise tht they can never become life partners...due to innumerable unavoidable reasons.....what can we do about this...other than curse fate.....
well my question is tht ..many a time it happens that we would have to give up the thing that we want the most ....if it is supposed to be lost then why the hell does God bring it into our lives?????????........

Written on .... [05/09/2004 03:17:28]

It is said that "A friend is someone who walks in when all the world walks out"..not that it is not true....But a time comes when the friend will be the one who walks out first!!!..it can happen to any of us...And then We'll be left completely alone...
When u were a kid,ur parents and siblings were there to stand beside u and guide u through the rough times...Then one day when the Wind of teenage came by..u seek freedom from their love and care ...'cos u feel that many a time it is their over concern which keeps u from having fun!!!...Then one day u go away from home into a world full of strangers.....the earlier stages are of pure homesickness,then u slowly become used to the company of the new strangers who become ur friends (near and far)!!!
then ur whole world are ur friends!!! Far from home and lost in the cruel world ...who else can u turn for support!!!!!!!
But then when the friend itself walks out on you......how do u handle that???...
After all the support, love and care u have given himher...After all those times when u silently cried because ur friend ws sad....
After all those pains u took to make her feel at home....After those times when u fought with ur own parents in her support....After all this..If she still walks out on u!!! ....If she ignores u as if u dont exist...have never existed!!
If she in the name of her mood off lets ur friendship drift away....
After all this, only one thought now in my mind.......
"If u like something it'll go away
so dont like anything
then life will not be like what it is today"

Written on .... [28/10/2004 03:06:26]

In today's world where movies are rated on the no. of smooches they involve....the definition of relationships have to be seriously revised. Long lost are those days when Love was supposed to be a magic which would show us the one person who was Made for Us... falling in love is no longer a life's decision but just a New trend in the ever exciting society of teenagers. Most of them want that special someone ...to share those secret moments, to just pass time chatting or messaging, and when in a party, to announce proudly that 'this' is my boy/girl friend!!!!!!
but when asked about Future plans...they have a huge agenda which does not include the so called 'boy/girl friend'... and since this is not the attitude of all ,,,,,,we dont have the exact number of how many Hearts are getting shattered.....
what happened to the brilliant brains of our teenagers??? In the never ending run to understand all Hi-tech stuff ,are they losing the sense to understand the basic values of relationships and love ??????......Common friends...think about it.....
...i know ........atleast once in our lives we are all fed up of those traditional rules and cultures which prevent us from doing what we want... atleast once we would have felt like kicking the person who wrote those laws!!!!
..but still..dont u think that if we didnt have a little of those culture we would have become like animals seeking pleasure and nothing else?????... Our world would have become a ' ready to burst ' bomb where no one can actually walk out with the confidence that he'll be safe....So friends... lets start now and think about our friends with a little more concern..... Not that u have to get committed to everyone on ur list..... but atleast dont consider ur partner to be a device for just pleasure.. afterall she/he is also a Person like You and they deserve a little more of what we used to callLove

Written on ...... [12/04/2004 03:36:18]

Now i'm in an atmosphere of exams...yeah my exams start on april 20th...some of my friends are preparing themselves for Entrance exam....
Entrance exam has now somehow become a kind of tradition...everyone has to face it...But one thing i never understand is...How does people think tht a person's entire intelligence will come into hand within a small period of 3hrs...and that too for choosing the right answer??....human brain and its intelligence is not like a email account which u can access anytime anywhere with just a click...then how can people think that brilliant people are those who can win through entrance??
Sometimes i feel that we lose the opportunity to explore the brilliant....because we give too much importance to such exams and their results.....Students are almost discouraged to take up a career with a DIFFERENCE....everyone wants to be an Engineer or a doctor.....and for those few who opt for the else part.....my Salute..!!!!!!

Written on ....[07/04/2004 01:13:36]

Life is so funny...so strange....
One moment it lets u think that u r the luckiest one in this world.....every moment seems to be made just to make u happy..we get everything we wanted or ever dreamt of....
but then...the next moment it takes everything away..u'll be suddenly ALONE IN THE CROWD.everyone seems to push u away from them ..u become a disturbance...u dont know wht to do..u try keeping people to urself by doing favours for them..(which eventually end up in disaster!!!)...
Hey frnds have u felt this way before??? if u have pls dont lose heart....remember..life is not a straight path. Every good thing has to have a bad face....like those beautiful roses..they r so wonderful...but then they have Thorns..which are not sooo good..right???? similarly....when a bad day comes....just remember tht a good day is following soon...So Keep Up Ur Spirits...and Live Life To The Fullest...ok?

My Hobby :)

Friends or Foes???

Some days u cant help remind urself, how much better it was when we were kids!!

Friends were friends and foes were foes, there was always a bold line drawn between the two with thick black ink.... na......thick black crayons!!! :) Feelings were always clear and intentions never misunderstood!

And now we have grown up, and we have to wear a smile, while in our minds we might be screaming our heads off, with whatever bits of bad words we know! We need to put our heads to concentrate on multicoloured computer monitors, when we actually want to go out and party!! We have to be friends to our foes, which almost automatically makes our friends behave to us as if we their foes !

Every look, every word, every intention is misunderstood in every possible way! So much to the point that great people started proclaiming that 'the secret of failure, is trying to impress Everybody!'

Indeed, if we intent to clear every misunderstanding 'everyone' had got about us... then we would not have time for 'anything' else at all!!!! But does that mean that we live life our way and never care about others??? Answer would be a BIG NO !!!

Guess everything that we indulge in, needs to be within limits.. may it be friend or foe, Boss or childhood buddy.. .it applies to all!

Express your Feelings!!!!!

Have u ever had a second thought before u expressed your loveable feelings to someone special. (May it be ur fiance or ur mum.... ! )
In our orthodox indian soceity we have been trained to think twice before expressing our true feelings , and i do agree that we should be careful when we are dealing with strangers or people of the opposite sex with whom we dont intent to develop any special relationship.
But when it's that someone special in ur life, should we actually follow rules and egos before we think of expressing our love for him/her? I never felt that way.... and this blog wouldn't have come into being! But then i had this conversation with one of my friends who completely refused the idea, of cooking for his wife once in a while, as totally absurd! He being a good cook and other facts and figures in place, he couldn't agree with me when i said that it was also a way of showing ur appreciation and love for her.
I don't understand why anyone would wanna restrict the expression of feelings of love to his/her loved ones. I have had people in my life who never got to know how much we loved them, just because we never thought about telling them or expressing it in any simple way like a hug! And it made them pass through this life and out of it.. feeling that they were not wanted and their absence from our lives would never matter much ... when the truth was the opposite! And now i wish that they had a chance to express their feelings, wish i would have expressed my feelings for them!
We always seem to have the excuse that "he/she knows that i love and care for them, then why should i say it?" ... Yes we knew that... but still doesn't it make ur day when someone tells u that he/she loves u ??? .. those 3 words does have some magic!

WhAt MaKeS YOU HaPPy ????

Dear all ,

Some scenes in life launched a question in my mind.... What makes one happy? Something that makes you happy may not make me happy, right ? .... Guess you will say that it is a matter of common sense.

We are all individuals and we have our own special characteristics. which makes us different from our neighbour. How much ever we try, we cannot be the same as somebody else, there is always a factor of individualism in Humans.Thats what makes us different and superior to other beings...

.. but then, if we acccept this fact then why do we expect others to like what we like? to accept what we accept as normal. Why do we feel that what makes us happy will make others also happy?

... think about it friends... how many times have you unknowingly forced a friend or colleague to do something or accept something he/she had no desire to face, and ended up in a position when that person has regretted being your acquaintance?

Many times we forget that they are individuals with their own list of likings and dislikings, and we have no right to force them into doing anything they don't like!

How ever close you are to a person, remember to never forget thier individualism. The key to a successful relationship is to respect the individual in the person. Don't take anyone for granted. Don't assume that what makes you happy, will make him/her happy too!

Relationships............

Today morning was listening to my Ipod, and a very familiar song was going on, the next song was something I hadn’t heard before, and it took some time for me to gain interest in listening to it.

A thought came to mind then…. When it was the songs I knew already, it was easy to set my mind to its tune ‘cos the mind knows what to expect. But when it’s a new song i took a bit more time to adjust to the tune or actually start listening to it….

I feel that most of the times this is what we do in our relationships too. We all have some assumptions, usually formed with the help of what we see through media and what we read through books.

We assume that a particular relationship is supposed to be in a particular way. And when we personally get into such a relationship we start expecting the same as what we saw in the movie or read in a book. This will hide the true individuality of the persons involved and will lead to disappointment.

I should learn to keep my mind open. Open to new things, open to trying out new things, open to getting to know a new person. I should never forget that Everything and Every person is different from each other. No one is ‘like’ no one!

The Beginning...............

Life has become very complex when compared to the schooldays, when finishing the homework was the greatest problem one could face. Everytime we find ourselves in a tensed situation, and we hear all those mouths offering us advices... we feel that noone can understand how it feels to be us..... we become confident that we are the first ones who ever faced such a  situation.... but friends... give it a little thought and you'll know that is not the truth. There have been many before us.. they also lived, they also loved, they also won and they also lost..... It's been happening from time unknown and still most of us are unaware of how to handle it when it happens to us. So this blog i dedicate.. to the Unborn generation....To our future.. .when our words will be considered worthless... when we will be dead before we know it....