dear.....whoever
i dont know why i may be feeling like this...She is again slipping into tht same old trance.... I sometimes feel very childish of not accepting things as they are.. Many a time when i see her chumma loitering here and there without doing her work....i feel that sudden thud in my heart which rises all upto my throat and urges me to tell her to go do her work...but then i stop myself ' what right do i have to tell her that? she is a big girl and she knows whats good for her... there's absolutely no need for me to remind her'
but still i am that old character itself...she has been more than a friend for me...i have always felt possesive about her and so she was kind of over protected by me....and the consequences of that...i better not go into that again!!!!!!!! So i stop myself and when accidentally those concerned words escape my mouth my heart pounds again waiting for her reaction...
will it be a 'I knew u will say that' kind of look.......or will it be a look of confusion???.. or will it be her favourite weapon?....Silence???
...her silence...it hurts me more than any other thing in this world...... that expression on her face which completely ignores me...as if i dont even exist!!!!!!............it just pricks deep into my soul and drains me of all happinesss........
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Writen on ... [08/07/2004 03:15:57]
Friendship..takes u higher everyday....!!!!...sometimes it takes us so higher that we find ourselves all alone in tht height!!!!......Crazy idea huh??
more than four years of friendship...and it has been absolutely wonderful.....but now i and my friend is in a position where we have nothing more to talk about.......it feels like everything is said......
at this point i am forced to think ...maybe it is like this itself in all long term relationships.....is it????...is it gonna be same in marriage also???...if so do we have the right to blame someone for getting out of their marriage?????....what do u say?
more than four years of friendship...and it has been absolutely wonderful.....but now i and my friend is in a position where we have nothing more to talk about.......it feels like everything is said......
at this point i am forced to think ...maybe it is like this itself in all long term relationships.....is it????...is it gonna be same in marriage also???...if so do we have the right to blame someone for getting out of their marriage?????....what do u say?
Written on ... [25/07/2004 03:28:04]
i believe in destiny....something like those "someone somewhere for u"" ...someone called ur soulmate ,ur soulmate maybe completely contrast character to u..but together u become perfect..well thts why we have 'Better halves"...right!!!
there are three categories of people in our world.....wanna know what...one section are those lucky ones who have the privilege to find their soulmates and proceed to make them their life partner....their life will be complete with love and care and understanding....
Another section are those who meet up someone and feel tht they are their soulmate....(may or maynot be true)...their life becomes a heaven or hell according to their own reasons...only thing we can do is to wish them luck....
Now there is yet another section......(perhaps the most tragic of all).....they are lucky enough to find their soulmate...the one who completes them...the one who is the answer to all their problems.....life becomes beautiful when they are together.....but the tragic part is when they realise tht they can never become life partners...due to innumerable unavoidable reasons.....what can we do about this...other than curse fate.....
well my question is tht ..many a time it happens that we would have to give up the thing that we want the most ....if it is supposed to be lost then why the hell does God bring it into our lives?????????........
there are three categories of people in our world.....wanna know what...one section are those lucky ones who have the privilege to find their soulmates and proceed to make them their life partner....their life will be complete with love and care and understanding....
Another section are those who meet up someone and feel tht they are their soulmate....(may or maynot be true)...their life becomes a heaven or hell according to their own reasons...only thing we can do is to wish them luck....
Now there is yet another section......(perhaps the most tragic of all).....they are lucky enough to find their soulmate...the one who completes them...the one who is the answer to all their problems.....life becomes beautiful when they are together.....but the tragic part is when they realise tht they can never become life partners...due to innumerable unavoidable reasons.....what can we do about this...other than curse fate.....
well my question is tht ..many a time it happens that we would have to give up the thing that we want the most ....if it is supposed to be lost then why the hell does God bring it into our lives?????????........
Written on .... [05/09/2004 03:17:28]
It is said that "A friend is someone who walks in when all the world walks out"..not that it is not true....But a time comes when the friend will be the one who walks out first!!!..it can happen to any of us...And then We'll be left completely alone...
When u were a kid,ur parents and siblings were there to stand beside u and guide u through the rough times...Then one day when the Wind of teenage came by..u seek freedom from their love and care ...'cos u feel that many a time it is their over concern which keeps u from having fun!!!...Then one day u go away from home into a world full of strangers.....the earlier stages are of pure homesickness,then u slowly become used to the company of the new strangers who become ur friends (near and far)!!!
then ur whole world are ur friends!!! Far from home and lost in the cruel world ...who else can u turn for support!!!!!!!
But then when the friend itself walks out on you......how do u handle that???...
After all the support, love and care u have given himher...After all those times when u silently cried because ur friend ws sad....
After all those pains u took to make her feel at home....After those times when u fought with ur own parents in her support....After all this..If she still walks out on u!!! ....If she ignores u as if u dont exist...have never existed!!
If she in the name of her mood off lets ur friendship drift away....
After all this, only one thought now in my mind.......
"If u like something it'll go away
so dont like anything
then life will not be like what it is today"
When u were a kid,ur parents and siblings were there to stand beside u and guide u through the rough times...Then one day when the Wind of teenage came by..u seek freedom from their love and care ...'cos u feel that many a time it is their over concern which keeps u from having fun!!!...Then one day u go away from home into a world full of strangers.....the earlier stages are of pure homesickness,then u slowly become used to the company of the new strangers who become ur friends (near and far)!!!
then ur whole world are ur friends!!! Far from home and lost in the cruel world ...who else can u turn for support!!!!!!!
But then when the friend itself walks out on you......how do u handle that???...
After all the support, love and care u have given himher...After all those times when u silently cried because ur friend ws sad....
After all those pains u took to make her feel at home....After those times when u fought with ur own parents in her support....After all this..If she still walks out on u!!! ....If she ignores u as if u dont exist...have never existed!!
If she in the name of her mood off lets ur friendship drift away....
After all this, only one thought now in my mind.......
"If u like something it'll go away
so dont like anything
then life will not be like what it is today"
Written on .... [28/10/2004 03:06:26]
In today's world where movies are rated on the no. of smooches they involve....the definition of relationships have to be seriously revised. Long lost are those days when Love was supposed to be a magic which would show us the one person who was Made for Us... falling in love is no longer a life's decision but just a New trend in the ever exciting society of teenagers. Most of them want that special someone ...to share those secret moments, to just pass time chatting or messaging, and when in a party, to announce proudly that 'this' is my boy/girl friend!!!!!!
but when asked about Future plans...they have a huge agenda which does not include the so called 'boy/girl friend'... and since this is not the attitude of all ,,,,,,we dont have the exact number of how many Hearts are getting shattered.....
what happened to the brilliant brains of our teenagers??? In the never ending run to understand all Hi-tech stuff ,are they losing the sense to understand the basic values of relationships and love ??????......Common friends...think about it.....
...i know ........atleast once in our lives we are all fed up of those traditional rules and cultures which prevent us from doing what we want... atleast once we would have felt like kicking the person who wrote those laws!!!!
..but still..dont u think that if we didnt have a little of those culture we would have become like animals seeking pleasure and nothing else?????... Our world would have become a ' ready to burst ' bomb where no one can actually walk out with the confidence that he'll be safe....So friends... lets start now and think about our friends with a little more concern..... Not that u have to get committed to everyone on ur list..... but atleast dont consider ur partner to be a device for just pleasure.. afterall she/he is also a Person like You and they deserve a little more of what we used to callLove
but when asked about Future plans...they have a huge agenda which does not include the so called 'boy/girl friend'... and since this is not the attitude of all ,,,,,,we dont have the exact number of how many Hearts are getting shattered.....
what happened to the brilliant brains of our teenagers??? In the never ending run to understand all Hi-tech stuff ,are they losing the sense to understand the basic values of relationships and love ??????......Common friends...think about it.....
...i know ........atleast once in our lives we are all fed up of those traditional rules and cultures which prevent us from doing what we want... atleast once we would have felt like kicking the person who wrote those laws!!!!
..but still..dont u think that if we didnt have a little of those culture we would have become like animals seeking pleasure and nothing else?????... Our world would have become a ' ready to burst ' bomb where no one can actually walk out with the confidence that he'll be safe....So friends... lets start now and think about our friends with a little more concern..... Not that u have to get committed to everyone on ur list..... but atleast dont consider ur partner to be a device for just pleasure.. afterall she/he is also a Person like You and they deserve a little more of what we used to callLove
Written on ...... [12/04/2004 03:36:18]
Now i'm in an atmosphere of exams...yeah my exams start on april 20th...some of my friends are preparing themselves for Entrance exam....
Entrance exam has now somehow become a kind of tradition...everyone has to face it...But one thing i never understand is...How does people think tht a person's entire intelligence will come into hand within a small period of 3hrs...and that too for choosing the right answer??....human brain and its intelligence is not like a email account which u can access anytime anywhere with just a click...then how can people think that brilliant people are those who can win through entrance??
Sometimes i feel that we lose the opportunity to explore the brilliant....because we give too much importance to such exams and their results.....Students are almost discouraged to take up a career with a DIFFERENCE....everyone wants to be an Engineer or a doctor.....and for those few who opt for the else part.....my Salute..!!!!!!
Entrance exam has now somehow become a kind of tradition...everyone has to face it...But one thing i never understand is...How does people think tht a person's entire intelligence will come into hand within a small period of 3hrs...and that too for choosing the right answer??....human brain and its intelligence is not like a email account which u can access anytime anywhere with just a click...then how can people think that brilliant people are those who can win through entrance??
Sometimes i feel that we lose the opportunity to explore the brilliant....because we give too much importance to such exams and their results.....Students are almost discouraged to take up a career with a DIFFERENCE....everyone wants to be an Engineer or a doctor.....and for those few who opt for the else part.....my Salute..!!!!!!
Written on ....[07/04/2004 01:13:36]
Life is so funny...so strange....
One moment it lets u think that u r the luckiest one in this world.....every moment seems to be made just to make u happy..we get everything we wanted or ever dreamt of....
but then...the next moment it takes everything away..u'll be suddenly ALONE IN THE CROWD.everyone seems to push u away from them ..u become a disturbance...u dont know wht to do..u try keeping people to urself by doing favours for them..(which eventually end up in disaster!!!)...
Hey frnds have u felt this way before??? if u have pls dont lose heart....remember..life is not a straight path. Every good thing has to have a bad face....like those beautiful roses..they r so wonderful...but then they have Thorns..which are not sooo good..right???? similarly....when a bad day comes....just remember tht a good day is following soon...So Keep Up Ur Spirits...and Live Life To The Fullest...ok?
One moment it lets u think that u r the luckiest one in this world.....every moment seems to be made just to make u happy..we get everything we wanted or ever dreamt of....
but then...the next moment it takes everything away..u'll be suddenly ALONE IN THE CROWD.everyone seems to push u away from them ..u become a disturbance...u dont know wht to do..u try keeping people to urself by doing favours for them..(which eventually end up in disaster!!!)...
Hey frnds have u felt this way before??? if u have pls dont lose heart....remember..life is not a straight path. Every good thing has to have a bad face....like those beautiful roses..they r so wonderful...but then they have Thorns..which are not sooo good..right???? similarly....when a bad day comes....just remember tht a good day is following soon...So Keep Up Ur Spirits...and Live Life To The Fullest...ok?
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