...........BenGaLurU~bYtEs..........

…. Lit with golden lights, … It lay there, as if welcoming us to the unknown world beyond our reach. As i tread on that golden path, something in me urged my tired eyes to search for the invisible destination the road lead to, my heartbeat raced as if fearing a dark ending to this enlightened trip.

A moment of uncertainty left me wondering how similar life’s paths are, to this trip. Almost always we travel, not knowing where our destination is. Sometimes the journey would be torturous and the destination sweet, and sometimes the other way round , and all well, for the lucky few! However it turns out to be, if a suffering was involved, we get surprised and shocked at first, then we shed some tears and then slowly and steadily our minds get adjusted to the “facts”, and the next time something similarly bad happens to a friend…. we would end up sharing tales of advice!

As if to wake me up from my wonderland of thoughts, my golden carriage came to a halt… and then i heard trumpets and horns, Atlast i’ve reached the sweet destination of my life, where i would be pampered for who i am and not for who others expect me to be…. Atlast my soul will be at peace… then i heard someone talking…an angel??? a guardian of the gates of heaven??? ….. na …….!!!! ….. just another auto driver struggling to live his day through the traffic!…. and then like a bullet coming through, it all came back to me in a sudden thrust…. i am still here, in the bus to home… my golden road was just the Hosur flyover..and my destination.. [maybe 'dark ending of the enlightened trip' is the better suited word...] ..is just the silkboard junction…. hovering with traffic and horns and shouts … like every other day!!

Written on ...[26/02/2005 23:37:29]

ALCHEMIST.....................................
a book which is on t he bestsellers list for a long time....i got this book just by chance of luck... It truly leaves u to think for a while as u read each line.... and in the end it tells U to LISTEN to ur Heart..... follow ur dream .....realise ur purpose...before its too late..

We travel with sandiago....an ordinary shepherd boy with a difference....!!!!! Dreams come and go...sometimes it affects us and sometimes no....Dreams are to be followed...easily said than done nah??? but Paulo Coelho...the author has a different fact to tell us...Sandiago and his trail teaches us that Evrything under heaven has a purpose...and our aim in life should be to realise it...Since God cant keep conferences and explain it to us with PowerPoint presentations...we get to see something more natural and within Gods range......dreams.....
Seems a bit philosophical huh???"the boy" takes us to the distant deserts and then in search of the Alchemist--who is a person who has discovered the Elixir of Life and the trick to turn every other metal into gold..
Alchemist helps the boy discover the tru meaning of life .....of achieving ur dreams....and he helps us climb into the cloud....it has given me the answers of many of my questions..a.nd hope it would do the same to you...enjoy reading

Written on ... [05/11/2004 03:13:22]

dear.....whoever
i dont know why i may be feeling like this...She is again slipping into tht same old trance.... I sometimes feel very childish of not accepting things as they are.. Many a time when i see her chumma loitering here and there without doing her work....i feel that sudden thud in my heart which rises all upto my throat and urges me to tell her to go do her work...but then i stop myself ' what right do i have to tell her that? she is a big girl and she knows whats good for her... there's absolutely no need for me to remind her'
but still i am that old character itself...she has been more than a friend for me...i have always felt possesive about her and so she was kind of over protected by me....and the consequences of that...i better not go into that again!!!!!!!! So i stop myself and when accidentally those concerned words escape my mouth my heart pounds again waiting for her reaction...
will it be a 'I knew u will say that' kind of look.......or will it be a look of confusion???.. or will it be her favourite weapon?....Silence???
...her silence...it hurts me more than any other thing in this world...... that expression on her face which completely ignores me...as if i dont even exist!!!!!!............it just pricks deep into my soul and drains me of all happinesss........

Writen on ... [08/07/2004 03:15:57]

Friendship..takes u higher everyday....!!!!...sometimes it takes us so higher that we find ourselves all alone in tht height!!!!......Crazy idea huh??
more than four years of friendship...and it has been absolutely wonderful.....but now i and my friend is in a position where we have nothing more to talk about.......it feels like everything is said......
at this point i am forced to think ...maybe it is like this itself in all long term relationships.....is it????...is it gonna be same in marriage also???...if so do we have the right to blame someone for getting out of their marriage?????....what do u say?

Written on ... [25/07/2004 03:28:04]

i believe in destiny....something like those "someone somewhere for u"" ...someone called ur soulmate ,ur soulmate maybe completely contrast character to u..but together u become perfect..well thts why we have 'Better halves"...right!!!
there are three categories of people in our world.....wanna know what...one section are those lucky ones who have the privilege to find their soulmates and proceed to make them their life partner....their life will be complete with love and care and understanding....
Another section are those who meet up someone and feel tht they are their soulmate....(may or maynot be true)...their life becomes a heaven or hell according to their own reasons...only thing we can do is to wish them luck....
Now there is yet another section......(perhaps the most tragic of all).....they are lucky enough to find their soulmate...the one who completes them...the one who is the answer to all their problems.....life becomes beautiful when they are together.....but the tragic part is when they realise tht they can never become life partners...due to innumerable unavoidable reasons.....what can we do about this...other than curse fate.....
well my question is tht ..many a time it happens that we would have to give up the thing that we want the most ....if it is supposed to be lost then why the hell does God bring it into our lives?????????........

Written on .... [05/09/2004 03:17:28]

It is said that "A friend is someone who walks in when all the world walks out"..not that it is not true....But a time comes when the friend will be the one who walks out first!!!..it can happen to any of us...And then We'll be left completely alone...
When u were a kid,ur parents and siblings were there to stand beside u and guide u through the rough times...Then one day when the Wind of teenage came by..u seek freedom from their love and care ...'cos u feel that many a time it is their over concern which keeps u from having fun!!!...Then one day u go away from home into a world full of strangers.....the earlier stages are of pure homesickness,then u slowly become used to the company of the new strangers who become ur friends (near and far)!!!
then ur whole world are ur friends!!! Far from home and lost in the cruel world ...who else can u turn for support!!!!!!!
But then when the friend itself walks out on you......how do u handle that???...
After all the support, love and care u have given himher...After all those times when u silently cried because ur friend ws sad....
After all those pains u took to make her feel at home....After those times when u fought with ur own parents in her support....After all this..If she still walks out on u!!! ....If she ignores u as if u dont exist...have never existed!!
If she in the name of her mood off lets ur friendship drift away....
After all this, only one thought now in my mind.......
"If u like something it'll go away
so dont like anything
then life will not be like what it is today"

Written on .... [28/10/2004 03:06:26]

In today's world where movies are rated on the no. of smooches they involve....the definition of relationships have to be seriously revised. Long lost are those days when Love was supposed to be a magic which would show us the one person who was Made for Us... falling in love is no longer a life's decision but just a New trend in the ever exciting society of teenagers. Most of them want that special someone ...to share those secret moments, to just pass time chatting or messaging, and when in a party, to announce proudly that 'this' is my boy/girl friend!!!!!!
but when asked about Future plans...they have a huge agenda which does not include the so called 'boy/girl friend'... and since this is not the attitude of all ,,,,,,we dont have the exact number of how many Hearts are getting shattered.....
what happened to the brilliant brains of our teenagers??? In the never ending run to understand all Hi-tech stuff ,are they losing the sense to understand the basic values of relationships and love ??????......Common friends...think about it.....
...i know ........atleast once in our lives we are all fed up of those traditional rules and cultures which prevent us from doing what we want... atleast once we would have felt like kicking the person who wrote those laws!!!!
..but still..dont u think that if we didnt have a little of those culture we would have become like animals seeking pleasure and nothing else?????... Our world would have become a ' ready to burst ' bomb where no one can actually walk out with the confidence that he'll be safe....So friends... lets start now and think about our friends with a little more concern..... Not that u have to get committed to everyone on ur list..... but atleast dont consider ur partner to be a device for just pleasure.. afterall she/he is also a Person like You and they deserve a little more of what we used to callLove